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Becoming Aware of God's Presence
Author, The Rev. Frank Logue is Missioner of
King of Peace in Kingsland.
The kitchen bustled with
activity. People dashed about preparing food for the
large group to be on hand for dinner that evening. The
fire had to be tended. The bread kneaded. The soup pot
stirred. In the midst of the maelstrom, Lawrence
worked completely at peace as if he was sitting in the
monastery chapel in prayer.
This is how is fellow
monks remembered Brother Lawrence. He himself said of
his work, “The time of business does not with me differ
from the time of prayer; and in the noise and clatter of
my kitchen, while several persons are at the same time
calling for different things, I possess God in as great
tranquility as if I were upon my knees at [worship].”
Lawrence was named
Nicholas Herman by his parents at his birth in 1648.
Nicholas was poor and received no formal education. As a
young teen, he worked as a footman and soldier. In the
winter of 1666, Nicholas saw the bare limbs of a tree
standing out against a world shrouded in snow. He knew
with certainty that in a matter of months, the tree
would once again sprout leaves, then flowers and fruit.
The certainty of that little resurrection had a profound
affect on the teenager. He knew that God was faithful
and could be counted on in all things.
Nicholas went to the
group of monks known as barefoot Carmelites and took the
name Lawrence in joining that religious order. Lawrence
would later say that he had hoped in joining the
monastery that he could sacrifice his life to God, but
God had disappointed him sorely as Lawrence had nothing
but pleasure from his life as a monk.
In the beginning of his
time with the Carmelites, Lawrence tried various means
of prayer known to the monks, but he always found his
mind wandering off to other things while he was to be in
prayer. Then as time passed Lawrence began practicing
the presence of God in all places. This meant that
Lawrence tried to keep at the forefront of his mind that
God was present with him wherever he was, whatever he
was doing.
The
ongoing knowledge of God’s presence began to change
Lawrence visibly over time in the eyes of those who
lived with him. They noticed that Lawrence, who always
seemed busy with the work of the monastery, nonetheless
had a deeper inner peace, a divine light within that was
unmistakable to all who encountered him.
Times of prayer in the
chapel were something Lawrence did for the sake of his
superiors, but he found he did not need them as those
times in the chapel were identical in his spirit to the
times at work, for in both times and places he was
deeply aware of God’s presence. Lawrence learned how to
live out the Apostle Paul’s words to the Christians in
Thessalonica, “Pray without ceasing.”
None of this means that
Lawrence was a perfect man, or considered himself better
than others. He just lived his life as before God. When
he made mistakes, which he did, he would ask for God’s
forgiveness and would endeavor not to repeat the error.
Brother Lawrence’s
ongoing life lived before God reminds me of a professor
my freshman year of college. One morning he looked out
on the classroom and told us that he felt sorry for us.
We were young and had so much energy to consume in
meeting one another, dating and the search for
companionship.
The
professor told us that he and his bride of more than 40
years had sat together in the living room the night
before for several hours without saying a word. She
first graded papers then knitted, while he read a book.
The whole time he was thankful for her presence and
companionship, yet not a word needed to be spoken
between them. The connection between them was all the
more intense for their years together.
This
image of husband and wife together with no words yet a
mutual comfort, offers to me a picture of what Lawrence
describes in his writings. Simply by continually
reminding himself that God was present at all times, he
was able to transform everything he did into a prayer.
Well-baked bread was an offering of thankfulness back to
God as was a well-cleaned pot after soup had gotten
stuck to the bottom of it.
Lawrence
wrote only a few letters, which are preserved to this
day, but a fellow monk interviewed Lawrence not long
before his death to learn the secret behind the elderly
man’s calm devotion to God in all circumstances. These,
together with his letters, are preserved in the little
book, “The Practice of the Presence of God,” which I
recommend to those who want to encounter Lawrence’s
wisdom more directly.
His words
are needed today perhaps more than in the 17th
century kitchen where Brother Lawrence worked. For few
of us have the time we would like to have for prayer,
yet each of us can make everything we do a prayer if we
practice God’s presence in all times and places.
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